Dear Diary~

A nice time with my dear love..~ a four day holiday and he took a leave on saturday to be with me. What we did was we went shopping! We went here and there like Jakel, Pkns and also Sunway Pyramid. The thing was, i didnt feel well i got my fever due to my heavy flow of period. He was there for me. He comforted me when i was so down low. I love you with all my heart, ok now i really want him..Raya is near, i told him that he should not be sad when im not there with him but the truth was me, can i stand with him not being around when Raya comes? He teaches me to love him more and even more everyday and when he's leaving i felt like a huge void emerge and the feeling i had vanish and i felt blurred. Because he's always here with me and it felt kinda sad when he's not. He understands what im going through, he told me last night explaining to me the reason why im feeling all this, he understands completely. Somehow i felt relief and happy coz we know the fact that we cant change anything right now but knowing he understand the situation and my feeling is good enough for me. i mean all the things ive been wanting blabbering about doesnt matter anymore. My heart is ok. I love it when he does that. Everything i do when he's with me i feel there isnt any worries in the world that i can think. Did I tell you that i wrote a letter to him? An actual letter and its old school. hahaha i wrote it when i was in my deepest heart and missing him so badly. I even dont know that i can be like what i wrote to him, he brings that out of me. Something in my heart tells that i should bring him to meet my stepmother a few days before raya..but he doesnt know it and i dont know he can or not. Nevermind. Anyway i feel excited that raya is coming. and still there is some things that i havent bought like accesorise ( did i spell it right? ) hahaha The only thing i know is i love him so much. Bye!

Dear Diary~

Another Friday came, as usual he would be here with me. Actually I was browsing through all the pictures from yesterday break fasting. wanna see ? before that just want to say, his images..makes me melt..his smile..i feel like im walking on clouds..haha really. The pictures are as below..

Don't Go..~

Dear Diary~

Yesterday was my birthday..and surprisingly, only my sister in law wishes me...my family? na da..
and my 70 friends wishes me non stop until midnight..that was so flattering. Yesterday, i celebrate my birthday with him..at Serai seksyen 3..The food was yummy..we ordered, Siakap steam,butter prawn, meat cooked with dried chili, kangkung belacan, Tom yam mixed (this is a must!) and sizzling beancurd. Our tummy was so stuffed, i cant walk straight. Actually the story that i want to tell was, when i arrived to the restaurant..there was a present for me and a birthday card on the table.. i was so surprised! i mean..got a hint when i called him few hours before coming there that he was at sacc mall buying something..for me of course. haha but didnt think that he would do all of this things for me..my heart was touched..deeply! wondering what he gave to me?



The present that he gave to me..
i can't believe it also until now..

and the birthday card was so so cute and sweet. Everytime i read it always calms me..like there isnt any problem in the world would bring me down..he blows me away.. There was also a birthday cake for me..blueberry cheesecake ..nyum2 havent had it for a while. After dinner, i ask him to bring me to i-City.. i never been there and so does he..our first time to i-City.

Some would say the first experience is always we cherished the most. For me, it is..because i had a blast when i was there, i feel that i want to go there again..



what i cherished the most was we played this lastic thing where you you shoot it to the air and it come down like fireflies. mine was pink and his was blue. Love it so much! we spent about 15 minits there playing it. Felt never want to leave the place. we walked through out the whole place..my love for him grows even more..things that i felt long ago that i wanted, came back and i feel that im being loved so much. So around 10 pm he sent me home. owh! did i mention he picked me up with his car? its been so long ive been picked by him.. i love it!

Thank you so much love..thank you..

My Last Night being 23~

In an hour time, i'll be 24..i just thought that i would share this last moments that would never come back..i would have to say that..its very sad to leave 23~ i feel this huge responsibility immerse from out of nowhere and will stay until i die..~ The carefree person i used to be seems to fade away.. life just gets tougher and tougher and really kick you in the butt~

In my age of 23, i found him.. thankful for that. But there is more to life..i know..thats why i want to venture it with him..but im scared, a daddy's little naive girl is being an independant women and feels its tough to do it. Hearing Claire De Lune from Debussy to cherish this moment. I might show this post to my child in the future. How incredible this feeling is and how i dont want to let go. Imagine if im getting married what will i feel then?

Its 10:58, a lot is going on in my mind. mixed feelings. feeling like to go to eiffel tower once again and see paris city while drinking hot chocolate with marshmellow..going to venice and take a swift in a gondola..live happliy ever after. Can i? I know life is shit but i only taste the surface of it..don't want to imagine if i hit rock bottom. You are totally wrong if im waiting wishes from people for my birthday. I dont want wishes just only the love once i had when i was little when i dont think of responsibility.

I feel blessed, my birthday falls in Ramadan. the month that i've been waiting every year. A lot of things i want to change.. all of it into something better. A better employee, A better girlfriend, A better Daughter. Somehow i feel that what i do is not to the fullest and im still searching my passion on doing things. Its something that i really need to change. I dont want when i'm being a wife the attitude is there and when im being a mother.

Dear my love, i'm going to be 24, please support me, Love me, guide me into something better. I know you will be a good husband and a father. Please include me in your happiness until we die. Never let me go and be my friend when i feel weak, sad, sorrow, hollow. Show me everything that in this world nothing is better than doing it together and growing old is something to look forward to. I dedicate My Love from Sia to you. The rythm that has capture every beat of my heart. I love you, you are my soul now and forever.

The ending that i want before i turn 24 another 50 minutes? I wish( in my heart i whisper)....~

Good night my loved ones..cherish every minute in your life..its worth it. Bye~!

Wall of Journeys~



At Manhattan Fishmarket Alamanda...Salmon for us~!




Taking Pic's while he's driving..~




He's taking pic's while I'm driving..~




He's waiting for me when i finish work..~