What we are~Part 1

Right now im listening to One Republic - Secrets. Fell in love with this song after i watched Sorcerer's Apparentice. Love the magic and humor in this movie.

Friday
A few days back, started from Friday.. I went to IA BIMARC at Berjaya Time Square with him. Imagine how a boring conference became an exciting one where the person you wanted the most is beside you to bare together the boredom. I actually fell head over heals when i see him in a suit.How his hair spikes up. My mind cant form a straight thinking when i see him like that. Somehow i regret when im treated him when my mood went bendy coz..he was there for me and im treating him like im a bitch. i'm stupid. continue..Actually later that night was malam berinai for nadira..the night before i went to her house with also other gtp to help her wither her goodies for her wedding. I was pretty excited to bring him.The thing was , I was so happy that he was there with me the whole night, being there for me. Even I'm writing about it right now, I feel so relief.

Saturday
The morning was a rush coz i tought farz didnt wake up yet so i called many times and get help from other gtp to wake her up but actually what happen was she was already up and she was getting ready. So i'm the one who's not ready. After picking up farz,i picked him up. We went straight to the mosque. The moment i step on the ground getting out of the car, i felt something that i feel inside my heart that my friend would be someone wife and i somehow felt nervous. But my nervous when down a little bit coz he was there.. when i saw nadira in the white dress. i was stunned. she was so beautiful but i saw her sadness. Normal i guess for a bride to be that way. I think she achieve to navigate herself with her feelings at that time. Sincerely, the time when the solemnization took place, i saw every gtp was crying in the same time happy for her. As though we gave our blessing through our tears..but my heart was searching for him,is he watching this? is he like me seeing this? but he's no where in sight. but i understand the situation. I cried for nadyra..happy so much for her. When the ceremony was over there was photography session we took pictures with the new wedly couple. I saw him..my smile bloomed. we walked to nadira's house together. the handling over or swapping hantaran was held. Nadira's hantaran was so beautiful. Fresh flowers. While waiting for nadira getting ready for her reception, i was with him outside talking about many things. It has been that long to have that nice conversation with him. i think.