Diary for a moment~

my heart, something that you know i want so bad but for various reasons makes me feel this way..he's something, different..you know all this. You can see all the beautiful colors surrounding him everytime he smile.you make me beat fast. my dear heart, you have heard the sound of the ocean when i close my eyes for you..you already feel the wind that blows into me when i close my eyes for you to feel. remember my heart, these would help you to make a decision. but, do you remember heart, when i ran across the sand and into his arms? do you remember the smile he makes when he's blushing..? beat faster my heart..somehow you found the reason..beat faster my heart..

All the single ladies..~!! i'm single yet again..~ i'm ok..don't worry.. i'm fine.. i guess its better to let go rather than pretending..its for the best. so what have i done lately since im single? Enjoying every little things.. somehow these little things builds myself in a way that maybe i'm the only who can understand it..only one thing..i feel that my life is like a beautiful rythm of a piano being played..and my heart beats as slow as it can be..for these past days..i went to a place where i find happiness, and being around people that is worth of my love..until now..i never stop thinking about it..and i'm cherishing it..very2 deeply..

i dont know what my life would be after this...but all i know is that im here, waiting for the future. I'm wishing that my journey will be less painful and let the time would do the mending. i can't describe what im feeling right now..my heart is unavailable to feel. only my eyes can see it. my nights is as empty as my soul.. the words that are coming out of my mouth is as clueless as my thoughts. i dont know. help me..

hey, yesterday i watch new moon..eventhough i read the book but watching it, is more satisfying. I can't describe how i felt when i watched it. Many things lingers in my mind, some of it makes me cry..the thing that i found out is, how i have to cherish a certain feelings is by keeping it..do not pour it. back then i keep pouring it, makes me empty inside, and the feelings just vanished. This is one thing i've learned.i have to teach myself to keep my feelings. hearing " Edward At her Bed' by Carter Burwell makes me go beyond my imagination and makes me feel my heart so deeply. Lately, i got this vibe that makes me want to stay quiet and think..but people kept asking why i've been quiet which makes me hard to focus. i want to love myself again..

Whatever..whatever..whatever.. im so tired right now.. i also feel nervous the fact that tomorrow i'll be working..yeah its a huge deal..i dont know if i can make it..so like if its a contract, no matter what im stick to it right? its like the first thing i would do tomorrow is like be this professional worker shake hands here and there, introducing myself for this one week, well thats going to be lovely ( heh~!). leaving the house at 7, shah alam to bangi..do you think i would reach there on time? im not well actually..tadi i took 2 pills and i drove to pkns while feeling groggy..i nearly slept..woah~! so like now i want to sleep but i cant coz tonight i have to get up early..if i sleep now i cant sleep early..i would probably sleep late thats not good..so i'll stop here..wish me luck for tomorrow..toodles~!!

hey guys.. sorry for the hiatus.. im currently busy with 3 months training under cidb/KLIA training.. but now i got the chance..like between last minute work updates of my blog.. what a timing~ but my blog is updated and nice to look at.. i'll update whenever i can.. so.. in the meantime if u havent go to the new moon website i suggest u go now. http://www.newmoonthemovie.com/ enjoy~!

New Moon Trailer

New Moon Poster

Dear friends..

i want to say.. everytime u spend with me..i'll cherish it.. every drop of ur tears are very meaningful to me.. i wish you all lifetime happiness through out ur journey of ur life.. i may not be with you all the way but when im there with u..means that im destined to be with u at that time n place..the memory... will be an episode of my life that i pure heartedly keep in myself until my dying days.. Semoga Allah membalasi baik budi yang telah u all given me.. thank you for being my friend..i always remember you..no matter where u are.. dont do stupid things..untill we meet again.. i love you all.. xoxo

Dairy For A Moment~

HEy..urm.. right now i feel tired..i really dont know what to say about my final work for my degree show..im running out of time~ i need time..i cant peform if like this... i dont want to let go my degree just like that~please.. i need my cgpa to be 3 pointer so that in the future i can further my master~ serius redha..but in the same time im trying to get to the goal..i feel gloomy..i need time and usaha..but where i am right now is the best that i can give but still i know its not enough~ my family always there to give me support..i love them so much.. my boyfriend..the best boyfriend in the world and lucky like hell to have him..All thanks to Allah..Ya Allah.. I need guidance and support from You... i'm honest to myself right now..

DEGREE SHOW 2009 : ESSENCE

My Latest Work

Al kisah..lecturer gue mengatakan design gue crap.. i know ji.. mujhe bilkul nahi pasant hai..how dare he said that.. mujhe very sad huu.. lekin... aap mujhe bataaye..maine design crap hai?

REVIEW : RAB NE BANA DI JODI

Hello, dah lama tak update blog..sorry2 pada siapa yang selalu singgah kat blog nih..orait.. this time, nak review citer Shah rukh khan yang baru kuar dvd..RAB NE BANA DI JODI..  ok.. citer nih..dari mana nak start..ok.. pasal casting die.. heroin anushka, muka baru..bagi aku.. perghh body die hot ok..perfect portion laa.. atas mantap bawah maintain..walawey..ni first time die jadi heroin.. kiranya film debut die la..ok skrg the story..story die bagi aku is good..nampak cam tak akan menjadi tapi it turn out well..for me lah citer nih tunjuk true love la..perempuan tak nak love mcm nih mmg bodo arr.. mana nak dpt lelaki yang sanggup wat bende dalam citer nih kat wife melainkan korang ade org dalam ngan syarikat TNB atau member baik datuk bandar ker..wahaha k..k..tak sabar ni nak citer..kepada sesiapa yang tak tgk lagi..yang member2 aku tuh nak..mintak.. aku leh kasi. Ok... citer die pasal Surinder Sahni seorang yang schema yg kawen ngan Taani..actually Taani ni kawen ngan surinder nih sebab permintaan terakhir ayah die sebelum die mati plus pakwe die mati dalam accident bas masuk dalam lombong..kesian kat Taani..so cam die nih sebenarnya periang tapi since dua tragedi besar berlaku die cam tak leyh nak love lagi lah... so surinder nih ( shah rukh khan) ni fell in love ngan Taani sejak die jumpa kat perkahwinan Taani yang tak jadi tuh.. bila dah kawen surinder nih dah kemaruk ngan Taani ni cam trying hard to show love die kat taani.. sanggup mati untuk taani lah kiranya.. but Taani awal2 dah cakap die tak leh nak love surinder tapi die janji untuk menjadi isteri yang berjaya..and she did.. kagum lah jugak.. so pada satu hari.. ade lah syarikat tarian besar dari bombay dtg kat Amritsar..surinder ngan taani duk kat amritsar.. taani sebenarnya suka sgt menari.. so die mintak kebenaran surinder nak serta lah..surinder pun kasi lah duit and support.. tapi si surinder cam nak tgk sgt si taani ni menari.. die sanggup ubah diri die jadi lain supaya tak nak taani perasan..diam2 lah kononnye..si surinder nih pun bila dah ubah kepada pemuda yang kacak hensem bergaya die pegilah kat tempat kelas tarian tuh.. tetapi..jeng jeng jeng.. jurulatih kat situ igt yang surinder are one of the participant mcm taani tuh.. so die pun terjoin sekali..so lepas tuh diorang nih di divided into two group green and red..so yes boleh disangka..surinder dipartnerkan dgn taani.. tapi surinder tukar nama die kepada Raj.. so Raj n Taani.. tapi watak Raj nih cam menjengkelkan..cam frat boys lah kiranya..flirt..cheap flirt..hohoho taani tak bagitau pun die dah kawen... so cam taani cam tak suka ngan si raj nih..menyampah..cam tepahape..lepas tuh..kelas tarian tuh ade wat kompetition dance.. taani ni cam semangat giler lah nak menang.. tapi si raj nih cam taik..dance terabur..raj pun cam tarik diri cakap die cam wat taani buruk lagi..tapi..taani lepas tuh pujuk balik lah si raj nih..diorang menari..praktis..sampailah diorang tersenarai menjadi top ten jodi (partners) yang dpt masuk dalam dance competition tuh..nak wat citer nih lagut.. si raj nih pun luahkan perasaan die.. si taani nih dah serba salah dah.yelah bini org kan..tapi tani ter fell in love sebab cara raj luahkan perasaan love die tuh special..cair beb..so taani pun suruh raj bawak die lari dari amritsar..so Raj nih a.k.a Surinder (husband die) cam heartbroken..twisted jugak ar citer nih.. so si raj nih dgn keadaan frust cakap kat taani malam final dance competition tuh die akan bawa lari taani...so..in the mean time..masa surinder jadi surinder die bawak taani gi tgk ade fair jepun mana ntah and ade pertandingan sumo going on that time diorang sampai kat fair tuh.. siapa dpt kalahkan sumo jepun tuh dpt tiket gi ke jepun free pergi balik beb..surinder pun trylah luck die..menang beb..skema tak skema arr..wahahah taani cam marah kenapa wat bende nih semua.. so skrg nih taani dah gelabah,serba salah giler babi, confius..mcm mana nak buat.. So malam dance competition tuh sebelum diorang present.. taani cakaplah kat raj yang die tak dpt nak lari bersama die sebab die tak leyh tinggalkan surinder..so raj nih cam terharu arr dalam hati..sekali sampai masa diorang present..raj tak jadi raj, die dah jadi surinder.. so taani menari dengan the real surinder ngan kasut sport nyer...seluar slack,cermin mata ngan misai tampal..hahah so taani figure out..so diorang together2..apa lagi kan? happy endinglaa..hihihi last sekali tunjuk gambar diorang pergi jepun..comel2 jer..hihihi the end... banyak kan aku story..bila dah berapi nihlah jadinyer.. ok rate for this movie..Citer..8/10 Lagu 9/10 hehehe suka lagu2 die..really moving.. so korang gi tengok tau kalau belum tgk..best2..ok tata..hum rahi pyar kay..phir milenge chalte chalte.. :) 

Inspiration

i wanna share some of my latest inspiration design collection.. i've come across many design and some of them i just have to take to help me on my project.. credits to the owner.. check it out!

Ghajini - Guzarish

Aril - Andainya Aku Pergi Dulu

Andainya aku pergi dulu sebelummu

Janganlah kau bersedih hati
Andainya aku tiada lagi di sisimu
Janganlah kau memencil diri
Bayangkanlah masa-masa bahagia
Semasa engkau dan aku
Bermesra di langit biru
Di waktu kasih berpadu

Andainya engkau pergi dulu sebelumku
Mestikah aku hidup melara
Andainya engkau tiada lagi di sisiku
Mestikah aku kecewa

Ku percaya kau selalu di sisiku
Walaupun jasadmu tiada
Walau di mana kau berada
Kasihku takkan berubah

Di pohon cemara ku ukirkan kata cinta
Bulan tersenyum dan bersinar
Berguguran daun jatuh lembut ke rambutmu
Meraikan suasana indah
Di sini ku berjanji disaksi rembulan
Andainya ku pergi dulu
Jikalau ku pergi dulu
Ku nantimu di pintu syurga

I'm Supporting Earth Hour~!!

To show my support for Earth Hour im not going to be  online for one hour

and switching of all the lights in my house.yeay! For me this is a cool thing..

Diary For A Moment~

Malam ni terasa lah . Tak tau kenapa.. dah boring sgt2 ..

SHOPPING-STRAWBERI

Inilah kerja aku ... shopping..shopping..shopping.. duit habis beli shawl jer kerja nyer wakakaka what can i say.. shawls is my latest addiction besides guitar hero..lalalalala~

  

Diary for a moment~

hey, just taken my bath..my hair's wet waiting it to dry..while watching the victoria secret fashion show 2008..im so bored..seriously..my credit finish..ayoh dunno what to do now..but i want to do something..if only i got my shawls tadi it would be something that i've would been doing right now..im still searching ideas for my major assignment..oh come one..my creative side is so asleep right now..why??~!! tonight dunno what dinner will be..whatever..out~

SHOPPING : BUTIK SUNLAY

hallo~! kamek beli kain ela..just for my bf sister's wedding .. wahah pretty excited but dunno how it would turn out when it became a kebaya with me wearing it..hoho temanya OREN..

AIZAT - LAGU KITA

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Deras hatiku berdetak 
Di langit aku terlihat kamu 
Terang malam teman kita 
Dengan angin meniup sayu

Kupetik gitar akustik ini 
Dengan harapan dia mendengar 
Melodi indah yang kucipta 
Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya

Dan aku terus 
Menyanyi lagu ini untukmu 
Walau berjuta mendengar 
Lagu ini hanya untukmu

Arah hidup kita 
Tergambar bintang di angkasa 
Berkelip melukis cinta 
Terciptalah lagu kita

Oh..oh..oh 
Oh..oh..oooh

Melodi indah yang kucipta 
Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya

Dan aku terus 
Menyanyi lagu ini untukmu 
Walau berjuta mendengar 
Lagu ini hanya untukmu

Arah hidup kita 
Tergambar bintang di angkasa 
Berkelip melukis cinta 
Terciptalah lagu kita

Terciptalah lagu kita

AGNES MONICA - MATAHARIKU

Tertutup sudah pintu, pintu hatiku

Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergeming menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku, suara tangisanku
Kubersedih karna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukkan waktu

MARKER DRAWING / RENDERING

Today i woke up and suddenly have the passion to learn and be better in marker rendering. Since for Major im doing and event and Prof bising nak marker rendering. So bangun je terus bukak youtube cari pasal marker rendering..and i come upon some awsome videos showing thier skills how to rendering markers..seriously i became so excited and passionate when i saw these video's and feeling pissed becoz of not discovering these videos earlier and can get the practice..grr anyway.. i know these artist ar professionals but even so they are very inspiring and giving hope to me especially when i suck at drawing..i even dont call myself a designer..wahah whatever.. so here's the videos that i want to share with you guys..hope u guys like it..credits to HarveyArtifex,MikeysTube~ 

i made this signature tag ~ my activity during bored time~ just wanna share..

Comparison

 

This dress is inspired by miley cyrus wore when she presenting pink in the VMA 2008.. Her dress for me is an eye catcher.

 

IN THE DARK

what is this im feeling..? im shredding tears all over my cheeks..there's this one couple i envy..even if u see it 4 urself..u know they are so happy...making each other so happy to the core..~ All the mistakes i have done..sometimes i think not even once i deserve what he has done to me..even so i still want him. Why am i hesitating right now..? is it ok if i compare my love life with other love life there is? is it fair? i feel i want to run away..~ letting him go and let him be..i deserve better..do i?our anual anniversary doesnt even feel like an anniversary.. i dont want to cry at night wishing and wanting something more from him..he's the guy..i mean is it ok that us women expects more from men? i dont give a fuck if im being too emotional..this is who i am..im right  here.. wanting him more then ever..there he is in his LaLa land having time of his life.. and im here..i feel stupid..He got DL for his exams..making me like an idiot for moaning over a relationship that i think im the one who's building it..i let him and gave him what he wants..i just want a relationship where im bella and he's the edward but in my case.. im the edward..wtf, even u..do u want that?He thinks he's so good enough..I'm freaking MAD because i cant feel the love..i want constant love and care..dont want to feel alone and  any type of sorrows ANYMORE..no more..i dont want.. Fuck it.. i will never have what i want.. asik aku je sacrifice.. its been long since i cried but tonight im crying..can't stop it..i want to run away..maybe single is the way to go..no crying..is it better to be with someone or the opposite? you know what.. i feel i want to be quite.. let all the feelings to be kept in my heart.. he's dumb enough to know it moreover to understands it..For u who's reading this..this is me..can't decide what i want and can't feel what i should suppose to feel..i'm messed up~ what ever..

SHOPPING : BUTIK SUNLAY

 

Hey~! just bought these two shawls at a great price at butik sunlay..have to grab it fast coz its selling so fast..  owh yeah this blog also sells cool beautiful fabrics..its an eye twister.. drop by at  http://butiksunlay.blogspot.com

SHOPPING : STRAWBERI

owh yeah..im a shawl addict...confession is made :P~ bought another two shawls at strawberionlinestore..

 

CLASSTRIP : PANGKOR ISLAND

Last two weeks, kamek pergi pangkor. For me, best la.. kitaorang gi sana for 3 days 2 nights. Let me story2 about my point of perspect about the trip. The trip is on 20,21,22 feb. Bertolak on friday morning..Awal bgn siot~! kol 530 dah bgn. So..berkumpul kat ktm shah alam around 7. Dah lama tak naik ktm..happy jer rasa.. dah sampai kl sentral beli sandwich kat dunkin. Lepas tuh turun tangga naik train. Agak lama lah jugak.. dah tido bangun pun tak sampai2 lagi..dalam train menangkap gambar album, tgk anak org,kacau org..so bila dah sampai ipoh, kitaorang berjln kaki ke perhentian bas nak gi ke lumut. Best giler naik bas yang hampir nak tercabut besi,tingkapnyer.. last naik pun kat melaka masa dip dulu,..for me best siot..! Lama siot naik bas.. dahlah panas, dah sampai kat jetty lumut..beli tiket ferri terus naik..dalam feri interview maman rupanya die first time gi pangkor begitu juga jamboo.  Bila dah sampai kat pangkor, naik van pink pergi ke chalet kamek. Penat..satu hari berjalan..serius penat..tapi bila dah sampai chalet i mean for me wow lah.. ntah lah bila tgk chalet terasa penat tuh hilang..so dah settle in.. tido jap.. petang tuh apa lagi semua bantai mandi laut..best woo~!! isk..dah lama tak mandi laut biru..isk..best lah mandi..tanam syaf dalam pasir jadi duyung khunsa..giler..hahah tergelak kamek bila memikirnyer.. malam tuh bedal like hell sebab lapar giler.. mlm tuh tgk raja lawak..bedal jajan semua..then tido..All the activity is done on the second day.. pagi gi snorkeling eee, at first mmg horror sebab tak pernah ikan dekat dgn badan.. mcm pirana pun ade..letak je roti..pergh berpusu2 dtg. agaknya ikan2 kat situ gemuk makan roti je.. snorkeling sampai lebam.. its not just a phrase but i really do have bruises at my feet, cuts and bleeding..and also im burned~! but its worth it..lunch kat island snorkeling tuh serius never experience like this in my life..treasuring it good. masa otw balik naik bot.. tergolek dalam bot.. bodo..jadi bahan je.. balik chalet mandi and such gi jenjalan beli burger..lapor..lepas tuh kan balik chalet tido petang tuh ade sukaneka..agak best lah sukaneka sampai sakit pinggang main limbo..banyak memory disitu..malam plak ade bbq..kitaorang tak bbq dah siap bbq kan..mwehehe ketam bakar layannnan..~lepas tuh kitaorang semua gi jenjalan tepi pantai..waahh best main buaian tepi pantai sambil makan abc..layan beb ..beli one souvenier for myself to remember this trip. still wearing it right now. lepak jap tepi pantai tgk org dating teringat bf..adehh alah lepas tuh balik bilik sebab nak berak tak tahan..beli kacang rebus..jajan..belasah jelah ade rembat bawak balik chalet. sambil makan tertido..,.bodo bgn pagi tgn ade koko krunch..sewel~ bgn2 je pagi tuh.. badan mcm kena hentak pun ade..sakit giler..lenguh2. ayoh..so breakfast.. bantai bilik air lagi lps tuh..packing lepas tuh bertolak balik.. masa balik naik ferry yang bleyh kuar and duduk kat atas..best siut..happy rasa.. semua tangkap gambar.. aku tgk jer..happy semua org..tgk diorang happy aku pun terasa happy..bila dah sampai jetty lumut.. lepak situ sementara tunggu bas kol 530 bertolak ke KL..beli krepek ikan yng 5 10 hengget tuh...tapi kamek beli campur dgn sotong strip..hehe makan kfc.. dalam bas tido, main game kat fon lepas tuh dgr adib berceloteh, kasi teka teki sama dgn tacap.. jawapan die rasa nak bunuh je dua orang tuh.. hadoyaii. dah sampai pudu.. kitaorg jalan ke ktm pasar seni tuh terus naik ke shah alam. then dalam ktm nik cakap kelas esoknyer ditunda ke 2.. seronoknyer rasa..tapi tgk takde..hahah so thats how the trip goes..seriously best for me.. and looking forward a trip such like this in the future. Luv my friends and missing to those that missing the trip. Checkout the pics.. thanks to adib~! out..~ 

   

   
 
 

DIARY : SHAWLS

Ni adalah aksi2 ketika ku boring..~ since strawberionline store suruh tayang shawl baru..ni lah jadinyer.. takde cam.. guna webcam..senang..shawl yang aku pakai nih semua dibeli di strawberionlinestore.promote..promote..Actually to be honest.. i look even pretty when pakai shawl..no offense to bawal but..dah selalu pakai i look dull..bila pakai shawl nih terasa confidence diri tuh naiklah..Bf pun cakap lawa..habis jeans koyak..im trying something new..since shawl is nice, i wonder if i look good in tudung ekin..my friends and bf says cam makcik bila pakai..but mana tau if aku pakai nampak cun..heee bila 1st time pakai shawl terfikir kenapalah aku tak pakai shawl nih dari dulu.. asik pakai bawal hitammm je.. glad making myself to wear shawl..Anyway if u guys tgk aku pakai shawl nih kelakar..gelak lah..takkan nangis kan?? hihihi so leave me any comments about what u think of me wearing shawls.. :)