Dear Diary

Hello, actually i feel kinda unhappy right now but still i would like to share a few things with you readers about what has happened before. Let me start by telling you about what happened yesterday. I went to Shazlee & Aishah's wedding reception in Rembau. Well i went with him and happily met his family there. Shazlee is his cousin. Had such a great time with his family. Let me share with you the pictures taken by me with my new 550D DSLR. Here you go.




But above all pictures love this..taken by me of course.. i dont know if you feel like i do..but






Isnt little Aishah sooo cute?


Great time with lovable people..First time seeing Aleesha in person. Her voice is so sexy. No wonder shazlee melted in her arms..heheh. I want to tell you that im counting days to my holidays with my family to New Zealand and Australia..Can't wait to be there and buy everyone gifts but being on an 11 hour flight would make my bum go numb. i hope the inflight movie are new and great. Gonna miss him so much tho. but i have planned something for him..surprise..hehe Anyway,a lot of things has happen to me and make me realise a lot of things. I hope that it would be ok in the future so that i can go through it smoothly. I wish everyone a very good day. Bye!

Ku Berjanji Karna Cinta - Anuar Zain

Ku menunggu getar hatiku
Anganku hanya untukmu
‘Tuk bersama selamanya
Kita berdua

Kau selalu mengisi hariku
Dengan canda dan tawamu
Ku rasakan bahagiaku
Untukmu selalu

Ku berjanji kerna cintaku
Ku berharap kerna kasihmu
Selamanya dan tak akan pernah berpisah
Sampaikan nanti

Kau selalu mengisi hariku
Dengan canda dan tawamu
Ku rasakan bahagiaku
Untukmu selalu

Meraihmu menggapaimu

(Ku berjanji kerna cinta)
Kerna cinta
(Ku berharap kerna kasih)
Kerna kasih

Pernah berpisah
Sampaikan nanti

My New Haircut~

I want my new hair to be like this..what do you think? does it suits me?

Syaira's E-Day !

Yesterday , I went to Syaira's Engagement ceremony held at her house. Her house is big..first time went to her house. This is one lucky lady who got the gist of life..From the bottom of my heart, She look so beautiful..her dress is the most beautiful dress i have ever seen. the combination of colours is new to me. Never seen before the combination of colors that mix together that well. Silver, or light grey with hot pink lace..wow.. I better look at my own colors..what suits me.. nevermind that, her pelamin wad exquisite, i dont know what will syaira's pelamin would be like on her solmenization would top that.I'm glad to have syaira of my friend, i mean, look at me.. huhu i just felt happy just to be invited to her ceremony, that would be enough for me. I went with fynaz, farzana and with him..

He was so handsome, by far the most handsome i have seen him. To top of what i feel about him last night is by hearing Nada Surf - Inside of Love. The music just about right. I know the lyrics is the opposite but i like the music. He looks exactly like Josh Duhamel in What life is Like. I blushed big time. Below are the pics..not much but at least dpt bergambar pun jadilah..



*dah gemuk and i really do look like a makcik..i suck T_T*

PARAMORE CONCERT

Hello!

On 19th of October, The band from Tennessee came and rocked the night out with 15k fans here in Malaysia. I was one of em. guilty. heheh I rocked the night out with him. The only exception..love him. Anyway, Hayley as being her true self sang with all her might to give the best performance that we 15k deserved. I want to mention here that Jeremy is sooo handsome..he played the guitar like he's making love with it..Below is the video and also some pics that i actually went not just blabbering about it. wekkk!




The Opening



You can check our the rest of the videos at my youtube channel http://www.youtube.com/user/amenot?feature=mhum

I Got My Eye On This~




This two above really caught my attention...

Dear Diary,

kali nih ingin berbicara secara rojak. Banyak bende sebenarnya berada dalam fikiran ni. Bila nak kawen? Rabu ni dateline! Ke sana sini mencari, sedih rasa kat hati ni..penat pun ade..tgk sana sini..tapi nak kawen ntah bila..berapi mcm die yang nak kawen dulu padahal tergantung. apelah.
few days before or a week before..my heart became so sad. ntah lah. lepas tuh ok. lepas tuh tak ok. lepas tuh ok balik. apelah. shopping giler sakan tak ingat dunia. sekali visa sekat. baru sedar. MasyAllah apa nak jadi. Masuk butik LV berlagak cam org kaya tapi dapat pegang original beg pun jadilah walaupun tak beli. lepas tuh berangan nak beli beg tuh la beg ni lah,ape ni. si hensem ku membelikan ku perfume ngan ipod klassik.gilo ko apo. tak cayo? tgk ni..



gilo tak gilo..~




yang aku beli bende2 yang mcm ni..untuk siapa? untuk aku sendiri..apelah.

Apa yang aku nak sebenarnya?
Nak kawen?
Nak banyak duit?
Nak shopping?
Nak apa siti amrina?

renung renungkan..
my world is full of mixed stuff
love hate sad joy...

giler giler giler..
nak luah tapi takut..
so..
sampai disini sahaja.
terima kasih

I have my eye on this..~

Dear Diary~

I HAVE A DREAM..~


I have a dream that together with this passion lies in the heart that i would have my own sucessful online blogshop. The blog has already created. COLOUR CHEMISTRY. Im pretty excited to make this blogshop successful, so..I've been working on the logo for colour chemistry. I pretty much used 'try and error' method. I can show you the beginning of my designing stage for the logo. Let me explain the steps. The idea started out when i look at the name of the blogshop which is colour chemistry. So from there i took the initials and make something out of it.. C and C. Out of nowhere the infinity symbol popped out in my mind. So, i try to combine the Initials and the Infinity symbol.


This is the Infinity symbol that i used.


What i wanted is the logo shows a unity between colours. that is why i picked the name colour chemistry for the blog. A unity of colours.Simple.

So i played along in Illustrator and i get this logo..


This is the logo result when i combine the C initials and the infinity symbol together.

as i created more and more elements for this blogshop i feel as though im bringing this blogshop to life..This logo is not finished yet, so im trying to give more elements into it so up to here my post ends. I'll updated from time to time about design logo. chow!

Dear Diary~



Today was awsome, many things we did and they are bowling, archery, ice skating, well they played at the arcade but i was in the car sleeping..tired..hehehe Having so much fun spending time with my soon to be brother in laws. We break our fasting at Nandos and we have our dessert at chocolate lounge near the ice rink. Wish that Kak Ima and also Ikah together with Firdaus joining us. I confess my true feelings to him..i mean our status..he and i feel the same way..it is so rare..We realise that everyone and everything around is changing..but its like something pure like this exists..Thank To Allah..He created us to Him is our way back. Dont forget that. I'm thankful. I'm going to take a rest now..nyte !

Dear Diary~

A nice time with my dear love..~ a four day holiday and he took a leave on saturday to be with me. What we did was we went shopping! We went here and there like Jakel, Pkns and also Sunway Pyramid. The thing was, i didnt feel well i got my fever due to my heavy flow of period. He was there for me. He comforted me when i was so down low. I love you with all my heart, ok now i really want him..Raya is near, i told him that he should not be sad when im not there with him but the truth was me, can i stand with him not being around when Raya comes? He teaches me to love him more and even more everyday and when he's leaving i felt like a huge void emerge and the feeling i had vanish and i felt blurred. Because he's always here with me and it felt kinda sad when he's not. He understands what im going through, he told me last night explaining to me the reason why im feeling all this, he understands completely. Somehow i felt relief and happy coz we know the fact that we cant change anything right now but knowing he understand the situation and my feeling is good enough for me. i mean all the things ive been wanting blabbering about doesnt matter anymore. My heart is ok. I love it when he does that. Everything i do when he's with me i feel there isnt any worries in the world that i can think. Did I tell you that i wrote a letter to him? An actual letter and its old school. hahaha i wrote it when i was in my deepest heart and missing him so badly. I even dont know that i can be like what i wrote to him, he brings that out of me. Something in my heart tells that i should bring him to meet my stepmother a few days before raya..but he doesnt know it and i dont know he can or not. Nevermind. Anyway i feel excited that raya is coming. and still there is some things that i havent bought like accesorise ( did i spell it right? ) hahaha The only thing i know is i love him so much. Bye!

Dear Diary~

Another Friday came, as usual he would be here with me. Actually I was browsing through all the pictures from yesterday break fasting. wanna see ? before that just want to say, his images..makes me melt..his smile..i feel like im walking on clouds..haha really. The pictures are as below..

Don't Go..~

Dear Diary~

Yesterday was my birthday..and surprisingly, only my sister in law wishes me...my family? na da..
and my 70 friends wishes me non stop until midnight..that was so flattering. Yesterday, i celebrate my birthday with him..at Serai seksyen 3..The food was yummy..we ordered, Siakap steam,butter prawn, meat cooked with dried chili, kangkung belacan, Tom yam mixed (this is a must!) and sizzling beancurd. Our tummy was so stuffed, i cant walk straight. Actually the story that i want to tell was, when i arrived to the restaurant..there was a present for me and a birthday card on the table.. i was so surprised! i mean..got a hint when i called him few hours before coming there that he was at sacc mall buying something..for me of course. haha but didnt think that he would do all of this things for me..my heart was touched..deeply! wondering what he gave to me?



The present that he gave to me..
i can't believe it also until now..

and the birthday card was so so cute and sweet. Everytime i read it always calms me..like there isnt any problem in the world would bring me down..he blows me away.. There was also a birthday cake for me..blueberry cheesecake ..nyum2 havent had it for a while. After dinner, i ask him to bring me to i-City.. i never been there and so does he..our first time to i-City.

Some would say the first experience is always we cherished the most. For me, it is..because i had a blast when i was there, i feel that i want to go there again..



what i cherished the most was we played this lastic thing where you you shoot it to the air and it come down like fireflies. mine was pink and his was blue. Love it so much! we spent about 15 minits there playing it. Felt never want to leave the place. we walked through out the whole place..my love for him grows even more..things that i felt long ago that i wanted, came back and i feel that im being loved so much. So around 10 pm he sent me home. owh! did i mention he picked me up with his car? its been so long ive been picked by him.. i love it!

Thank you so much love..thank you..

My Last Night being 23~

In an hour time, i'll be 24..i just thought that i would share this last moments that would never come back..i would have to say that..its very sad to leave 23~ i feel this huge responsibility immerse from out of nowhere and will stay until i die..~ The carefree person i used to be seems to fade away.. life just gets tougher and tougher and really kick you in the butt~

In my age of 23, i found him.. thankful for that. But there is more to life..i know..thats why i want to venture it with him..but im scared, a daddy's little naive girl is being an independant women and feels its tough to do it. Hearing Claire De Lune from Debussy to cherish this moment. I might show this post to my child in the future. How incredible this feeling is and how i dont want to let go. Imagine if im getting married what will i feel then?

Its 10:58, a lot is going on in my mind. mixed feelings. feeling like to go to eiffel tower once again and see paris city while drinking hot chocolate with marshmellow..going to venice and take a swift in a gondola..live happliy ever after. Can i? I know life is shit but i only taste the surface of it..don't want to imagine if i hit rock bottom. You are totally wrong if im waiting wishes from people for my birthday. I dont want wishes just only the love once i had when i was little when i dont think of responsibility.

I feel blessed, my birthday falls in Ramadan. the month that i've been waiting every year. A lot of things i want to change.. all of it into something better. A better employee, A better girlfriend, A better Daughter. Somehow i feel that what i do is not to the fullest and im still searching my passion on doing things. Its something that i really need to change. I dont want when i'm being a wife the attitude is there and when im being a mother.

Dear my love, i'm going to be 24, please support me, Love me, guide me into something better. I know you will be a good husband and a father. Please include me in your happiness until we die. Never let me go and be my friend when i feel weak, sad, sorrow, hollow. Show me everything that in this world nothing is better than doing it together and growing old is something to look forward to. I dedicate My Love from Sia to you. The rythm that has capture every beat of my heart. I love you, you are my soul now and forever.

The ending that i want before i turn 24 another 50 minutes? I wish( in my heart i whisper)....~

Good night my loved ones..cherish every minute in your life..its worth it. Bye~!

Wall of Journeys~



At Manhattan Fishmarket Alamanda...Salmon for us~!




Taking Pic's while he's driving..~




He's taking pic's while I'm driving..~




He's waiting for me when i finish work..~

Dear Diary~

Hello..its saturday today..~Nuthing going on much but i just woke up at 10..the sleep i have been missing for a long time..waking up late~! likey likey..~ Yesterday, i bought a portable plastic hanger, i've been wanting to buy this this since i hit puberty.hihihi i bought it at carrefour. It cost me RM49.90, worth the investment. I know im lazy when it comes to doing laundry and cleaning my room but this thing actually raise me to wash my clothes. Right now, im waiting for my clothes to be washed. Its in the washing machine of course. FYI, i dont have a maid. Anyway, now i have to find some thing to make me clean my room. Not too long ago, i bought this huge carpet from IKEA, its black and also a 3-tier drawer, to keep my remaining, not enough clothes onto my existing cupboard. When i got back from IKEA i forgot the drawer is that i have to assemble it myself. Thats a bummer. I ask my bro to help me but i dont know what happen. Oooh, did i mention i bought myself a sewing machine? Brother is the brand. Its still in the box~!! What is wrong with me.. i have this cool stuffs and i didnt use it. Its wasted~!

A normal saturday that always keep me comfortable, staying at home, surfing until i feel asleep on my own, eating what my mom cooks. Just now my dad ask me to sit down with him and teach him to use the iPad. If you dont know, i got an iPad from my dad for my birthday. 32 gb. Wow, right? My dad and my brother has one. so to repay back what my dad give is by teaching him to use ipad. Actually i'm a newbie for Apple products. Enuf of that, ok what shall i do next? Eat~!!

Bye Everyone!

What we are~Part 1

Right now im listening to One Republic - Secrets. Fell in love with this song after i watched Sorcerer's Apparentice. Love the magic and humor in this movie.

Friday
A few days back, started from Friday.. I went to IA BIMARC at Berjaya Time Square with him. Imagine how a boring conference became an exciting one where the person you wanted the most is beside you to bare together the boredom. I actually fell head over heals when i see him in a suit.How his hair spikes up. My mind cant form a straight thinking when i see him like that. Somehow i regret when im treated him when my mood went bendy coz..he was there for me and im treating him like im a bitch. i'm stupid. continue..Actually later that night was malam berinai for nadira..the night before i went to her house with also other gtp to help her wither her goodies for her wedding. I was pretty excited to bring him.The thing was , I was so happy that he was there with me the whole night, being there for me. Even I'm writing about it right now, I feel so relief.

Saturday
The morning was a rush coz i tought farz didnt wake up yet so i called many times and get help from other gtp to wake her up but actually what happen was she was already up and she was getting ready. So i'm the one who's not ready. After picking up farz,i picked him up. We went straight to the mosque. The moment i step on the ground getting out of the car, i felt something that i feel inside my heart that my friend would be someone wife and i somehow felt nervous. But my nervous when down a little bit coz he was there.. when i saw nadira in the white dress. i was stunned. she was so beautiful but i saw her sadness. Normal i guess for a bride to be that way. I think she achieve to navigate herself with her feelings at that time. Sincerely, the time when the solemnization took place, i saw every gtp was crying in the same time happy for her. As though we gave our blessing through our tears..but my heart was searching for him,is he watching this? is he like me seeing this? but he's no where in sight. but i understand the situation. I cried for nadyra..happy so much for her. When the ceremony was over there was photography session we took pictures with the new wedly couple. I saw him..my smile bloomed. we walked to nadira's house together. the handling over or swapping hantaran was held. Nadira's hantaran was so beautiful. Fresh flowers. While waiting for nadira getting ready for her reception, i was with him outside talking about many things. It has been that long to have that nice conversation with him. i think.

Dear Diary~

Hello~!

Today..my beloved friend has become a wife. Nadyra..
We have been together from when we were teenagers and now i could not believe that i'm seeing her becoming a wife. Every steps i took into the mosque, i prayed for your future. The first glance of you in the white kurung dress already mesmerizes me. I just want to tell you, every smiles and tears that shed from me..are only for you. One day i believe, you will be a good loving mother. I'm giving my deepest and heartful compliment and wishes to you and your husband for your wedding day today. As a friend that cares, i would like to say i love you. Thats all from me..take care my love..

Im definitely going to choose PhotoAura for my wedding ceremonies..thier works has never let me down eversince i discover them long ago. The thing is that i want them so much but i cant you know? coz i dont know when i will be married.hahaha thats a laugh.But surely, when my big day comes, im going to ring them first thing. This is thier website, http://photoaura.net/blog/ . Thier recent updates is where aween rashdan, thier photographer went to Japan to do a wedding shoot. i mean talk about major jealousy spreading! The bride and groom are perfect for each other. The bride is totally beautiful and the groom is totally a hunk. Cheryl Blossom was thier theme. i guess? haha i dont know you go and find out~! I wish mine would be as extravagant as thiers. i wonder when does my time comes..huhuhuhu

Design showcase~

Ku berasa bingung untuk memilih mana satu design yang bagus untuk dipilih


design mcm ni ok gak?

Bila malam menjelma, jiwa seperti sehitam-hitam langit meluas
setiap fikiran yang timbul bagai angin yang perlahan yang menyinggahi di setiap pelusuk jasadku
keadaan gelap...

Berbicara pada hati yang menyendiri
tiada noktahnya,
kekuatan iman yang rapuh
menguji ketabahan seorang hawa yang kecil

Bibir yang diam, yang tidak menolong
umpama satu yang berat tergatung


jalan yang kabur, menyimpang..
tidak tahu ke mana..

tetapi ku disini di dalam malam yang jelma..


Amrina

VALENTINEs DAY

Today was a fairytale....

started out playing ice skating at sunway pyramid. we came at 930 and straight to the ice rink. it was a blast eventhough our feet became a nightmare. damn hurts but seeing his eyes it kinda fades. after that we had lunch at tony romas and get us some salmon grill with our fave drink, old fashion lemonade.i gave him a valentine card while waiting for our food and he was totally flattered. we were definitely stuffed. Then we head straight to the movies. We watched Valentine's day the movie, seriously..the movie was total hillarious, sweet and romantic. Taylor swift is so funny. Then we went to pancake house beside jco for some pancakes. worth the money. we went to forever21 after that and bought myself a cardi. seriously for me today was the best day/valentine's day i had since i can't remember when, back to back fun and loving.